WATCH: TobyMac recounts all in video sharing grief over losing son

TobyMac opens in a video interview about the continued grief he feels after the death of his eldest son, in hopes his testimony can help others in a similar situation.

“For me, grief comes in waves. Some days it hits you really hard and other days, well, I can’t say it’s never escaped me. But I can say it doesn’t. didn’t beat on some days.”

TobyMac recently opened up in a video interview with 99.1 JOY FM in the US, about the grief he feels over the death of his eldest son Truett at 21.

“The truth is, I didn’t know heartbreak. I felt like everything was beautiful and perfect until the last few years.”

The Christian singer’s son died at their home in Nashville, TN on October 23, 2019 from an accidental drug overdose.

“When we lost Truett, I met grief in the fiercest way.”

During the video, TobyMac recalls spending time with a father in Texas who had lost his own son in a car accident. TobyMac and this man went golfing before Truett passed away, and the man shared his story with the singer-songwriter.

“He told me that when you’re going through something hard, you have to hold on to something you can trust. His thing was to hold on to a promise from God. He said, be really sure of cling to something that God really promised us because when we’re in the darkest valley, we can cling to something that God hasn’t promised us.”

The man said it was important for TobyMac to remember that God never said we would not go through pain, hardship or loss.

“God don’t always take the cold away. But He promises He’ll be there with us. That’s what I held on to. And I found Him there, or He found me there.”

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TobyMac says he thinks about eternity more, because of the people he’s lost.

“I don’t know if I will ever be able to laugh that deeply. I don’t know if I will ever be able to smile that big, but I can smile. I don’t know if I will ever be, until eternity. I spoke from eternity before but I don’t know if I’ve ever thought about it that deeply.”

The same image comes to mind when TobyMac considers his son in heaven.

“I don’t know if I can say that without crying. I see him say, ‘Dad, if you could only see what I’m seeing right now.’ It’s not necessarily what heaven looks like, but how it all works.”

For others in mourning, TobyMac says that while it’s different for everyone, counseling is a gift if people can do it. He also shares that community is key.

TobyMac says his family, as well as his fans, have been with him as he mourned. “We felt surrounded by love, through the deepest, darkest, most difficult thing we’ve ever been through. To me, that’s what the body of Christ should be like.”

Shirley K. Rosa